pain

I have experienced pain like no other this past week when I hurt my back doing yard work. I'm not sure how and why this happened but I could not believe the horrible timing for this to happen. I'm in the process of trying to sell my house and find a new career or new employment since being laid off in February. I was trying to do some things to make the yard look better and do some much needed grass cutting and bam! I stated bumbling about while I was trying to use the weedeater and man did I feel the pain.

I lost all kinds of cool points around Nai because I cried my heart out in front of her because of the intense pain. She admitted that seeing me cry made her afraid. I guess seeing my mean butt cry like a baby made her realize that I had feelings just like her! I had to lean on her heavily over the weekend because I couldn't do anything with out crying or being in pain. I ate peanut butter and jelly sandwiches all weekend and she ate leftovers or noodles.

This happened to me when I was pregnant but it didn't last so long because I saw a therapist right away. The second time, I saw a therapist and I can't remember how long I was in pain but I don't think it was this bad. I feel like my lower back and spine is trying to fall apart at times. The crazy thing is in two weeks I will loose my health benefits and what will i do then?

My comfort zone is totally gone I feel so fearful but I am trying my best to stay faithful and believe that God will see me through my difficult times. I am a victor and not a victim. I guess at least through my hard times I am getting closer to God like I had always told myself I would do.

Laters,