feeling stagnant

I feel like my life is standing still right now. I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing right now. Good because nothing too too bad is happening and making life altering changes at the moment. In other words, I'm still unemployed but still in the house. Had someone who seemed to be interested in the house but I guess they didn't want the potential problems or they just plain ole found something better for them. More power to them!

On the other hand it could be a bad thing because as I said, no offers on the house yet so I'm still under the weight of the house and still unemployed. On the other hand, we have our health! On that note, this pain in my left leg is really starting to feel weird. I don't know what it is about. When I went to the doctor last year for physical she didn't even address the pain just set me up to draw blood and make me pay for blood work over 300 bucks for vitamin deficiencies. If you ask me, she defeated the purpose of me going there. Yes she pointed out stuff that is a problem but she didn't address everything. Plus, I want to go to the doctor for a physical before medical runs out but I don't want to spend the money on the blood tests! Catch 22 huh?

You know, this post was supposed to be about life in progress but as I stated in the title: my life is stagnant. I'm trying to see this situation in a positive light. As a way to turn this all into a positive. I've been complaining about my job for ever it seems. Now I have the opportunity to find something else to do. Well, it aint' exactly panning out like I hoped. I have had the desire to be a published, successful writer for a long time but I'm to scared to push myself to try it. I start stuff but I don't finish anything. My set up is right. If I didn't have this house note over my head maybe I could take the time to write but on the real, sitting at home everyday jumping at every sound is driving nuts.

I guess I'm going to stop right now. I feel kind of wonky right now.

Peace