Here I am sitting in the house again. It's been a while since I have written on this blog cause I'm lazy. That there is the truth and nothing but. Since then, I've been laid off, may lose my house or walk away from it or something. I want to stay but there are things pushing me away from it. All I wanted was simplicity when I moved down here but I have made it so hard and stupid with all the choices I have made. The worst part is I am dragging N around with this mess.
I'm watching Say Anything right now and I so don't get why people like it so much. Its okay and watchable but I don't see what is so special about it.
I feel like life is on hiatus for me right now. I don't know what decisions to make. I'm afraid to make any decisions because I'm a fraid if I decide, it will be wrong as usual and there will be another mistake for me to cry about.
My life is worth nothing right now. I feel like I'm taking up space. What is my purpose? Purpose driven life be damned. This shit is for the birds. But you know what? I'm too chicken to end it.
Okay, I guess that is all for now. No job, no prospects, I haven't been laid in 5yrs and it ain't cause I'm doing it on purpose. No one wants me, hell I don't even want me. All I want to do is eat, lay around and watch the ficticious lives of other people or read about pretend lives. What good is that?
Whatever....
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